What
was going through my father’s eyes
When
I shook his hand and said goodbye..?
When
I heard him say “I’m sorry”
Or
when I heard him start to cry…
“Be
safe out there, kiddo.” That generic fatherly line was too scripted to be the
truth. I could tell he was holding back so he could still maintain an image of
what his dad taught him to be a man. After all, that was what he had always
done. My entire family line had been but mirrors staring at each other; rows
and rows forming a tunnel. I was supposed to be another.
His
voice got high as I started to open the outside door to leave, and he said:
“was it because of me?”
I
had just about enough room in my heart for one more lie as I summoned the
letters “N,” and “O” out of my lips and laced them together with 19 years of
scars.
I
left and never looked back, but I could hear his tears hit the ground, like blows
of a hammer in my father’s coffin.
I
never looked back, but my mind sometimes jumps back to the days he used to hit
me,
And
to the day I thought I won.
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